Friday, September 14, 2012

There are no moments in my life that make me and set the course of who I'm going to be.

Sometimes there are little, subtle moments. Sometimes there're big moments I never saw coming.

No one asks for my life to change, but it does. That's what I do afterwards I counts.

That's when I find out who I am.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

I have been trying to find what is meant by a secret. I feel they are like a cancer in the soul. They eat away what is good and leave only destruction behind. Man is not what he thinks he is, he is what he hides. Its like trying to protect a secret causes anxiety and discomfort. 

I doesn't  want to hear any secrets.. We doesn't even  know until we hear it !! But now I keep me away from social gatherings, family members and sitting lonely.. making myself alone. I am myself alone..always lonely..  I never lie," I said offhand. "At least not to those I don't love". Don't know...

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

I was thinking about my past.. I got back my memory. Now I have realized and write how it was...

I learned so many lessons from my past. I got to know the impermanent nature of the world and events, and also knows the non-existence of past events right now and accept them. It is all a matter of where you are, of what you are. I never stuck with events in my time and space. My Nature was cool.. don't ask now why i wrote my nature was cool.. Now I have ups and downs in my life. But when I think of my past, It was cool and I was so simple.. so lovely.

Memory is a blessing and your best friend when it comes to you. Memory is a hindrance when it does not let you be free of events, pleasant or unpleasant. Memory of past events constricts the vastness of the self.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me and the person whom you gave for me for my life is the best person in the world forever. The love for him is eternal'.

Monday, February 6, 2012

I found some thing Rapid fire questions which I could not stop sharing with you..

- Politics?

- Religion?
Lifeline or could be death-line.

- Anger?

- Fear?
Love upside down.

- Joy?
Your nature.

- Knowledge?
That brings happiness.

- Alcohol?
That brings misery.

- Myself?
The lucky one.

- Chaos?
Mother of bliss.

- Your smile?

- Prayer?

- Relationship?
Work's all the time. But some says Doesn't work all the time.

- Youth?
Responsibility. Anyone who takes responsibility is a youth.

- Intelligent?
One who performs the responsibility.

- World?
A gift to humanity.

- Technology?
Meant to bring comfort.

- Future?
That which you can make bright.

- God?

- Life?
The same. Ditto.. ! :)

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Its a boring day today... though I spent my time with my family...I tired alot.. need to have long weekend..there and where I could spend my time with taking rest and rest and rest.. Need rest very badly.. :)

Thursday, December 15, 2011

My Loneliness..

We're all lonely for something... we don't know what we're lonely for.. How else to explain the curious feeling that goes around feeling like missing something in life which we've never even knew? I am myself alone. One oneness, a unit in a society, but always afraid, always alone.. the people whom you feel yours wont accept you as what you are and as their own.. the feeling is weird..

If I should scream, if I should call for help, would anyone hear... would it even matter? Time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. Time takes it all, time bears it away, and in the end there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometimes we lose them there again.

These days I always get negative thoughts.. No matter how much I try to control them, they keep increasing. At least now I have realized that they increase if I try to control them. And now I am not sure whether I am trying to embrace them or exclude them.

I've been sitting here trying to find myself.. I get behind myself.. I need to rewind myself.. I'm digging my way to something better.. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired... I used to go to bed so high and tensed.. I have lost the will to live. Simply nothing more to give.There is nothing more for me. Need the end to set me free. I thought I could leave, but couldn't get out the door

You'll just never many emotions I choose not to show..

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what I wanna see. My world use to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me. I'm screwing up every little good thing I ever try to do.

But I know you are always there for me.. standing besides me.. holding my hand in all the aspects.. You are the only hope for me now.. to come out of my loneliness and to find the way to reach my goal. Though god has given me the pain.. he has given you to overcome my loneliness, my pain.. Thanks for being with me in such a bad state of mine.