Thursday, December 15, 2011

My Loneliness..


We're all lonely for something... we don't know what we're lonely for.. How else to explain the curious feeling that goes around feeling like missing something in life which we've never even knew? I am myself alone. One oneness, a unit in a society, but always afraid, always alone.. the people whom you feel yours wont accept you as what you are and as their own.. the feeling is weird..

If I should scream, if I should call for help, would anyone hear... would it even matter? Time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. Time takes it all, time bears it away, and in the end there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometimes we lose them there again.

These days I always get negative thoughts.. No matter how much I try to control them, they keep increasing. At least now I have realized that they increase if I try to control them. And now I am not sure whether I am trying to embrace them or exclude them.

I've been sitting here trying to find myself.. I get behind myself.. I need to rewind myself.. I'm digging my way to something better.. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired... I used to go to bed so high and tensed.. I have lost the will to live. Simply nothing more to give.There is nothing more for me. Need the end to set me free. I thought I could leave, but couldn't get out the door

You'll just never know...so many emotions I choose not to show..

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what I wanna see. My world use to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me. I'm screwing up every little good thing I ever try to do.

But I know you are always there for me.. standing besides me.. holding my hand in all the aspects.. You are the only hope for me now.. to come out of my loneliness and to find the way to reach my goal. Though god has given me the pain.. he has given you to overcome my loneliness, my pain.. Thanks for being with me in such a bad state of mine.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Purpose of life.. !!



The purpose of life is not to be miserable and make others miserable. Purpose of life is not to show-off to other people. Purpose of life is not to think on small terms for short term joy and little pleasures.

First make a list of what should not be the purpose of life. So you think about it and one day you will discover. When you discover you will say, ‘wow!’

I too wanted to discover the purpose of my life. When I listed .. I found so many.. which have to be done and which not to be done. I finally found something new apart from my existing things.. Hopefully will achieve it soon.. (Don't ask me what exactly I found those as purpose of my life.. because every one has their own goals.. their own things to do, in their own way).

You too try to discover the things..and find out the purpose of your life. :)



Friday, December 2, 2011



When people criticize you, you should just listen to them. If there is something good in it, take it and if there is nothing good then just leave it, ignore it. They can comment, so what! You should not lose your equanimity. I tried so hard to ignore the people who comments me.. but finally I could manage to do so.. Lets try.. and feel the change..


Saturday, November 19, 2011

Getting Attached to someone is also painful.. !!

As the pain was more I tried to be in quiet.. heavens.. and sat in silence.. As I was attached to my dears... I could not concentrate on the nature...I could not stand in silence... As I said being far away from loved ones is more painful than the physical pain.. I experienced this..

Attachments takes away peace of mind.. Then you are in pieces and fall prey to misery. Before I get scattered too much, I need to gather myself and rid my breath of the feverishness through surrender.... I do not notice this until it is too late..

Without fighting the attachments, observe the feverishness for that... and go to the cool place of silence within. We have to direct the attachment to the knowledge not to the people... That is what I observed ..

Feeling that everything is stagnant in my life, I realize that everything is changing, yet see there is something that is on-changing. I recognize the non-changing among the change are the wisest of all.

It is very painful when the person whom we are attached to chooses to leave us..stay far away from us.. How do you feel then?? I could say one thing here.. Whatever is yours will always be yours. Whatever is not yours will come for a little while and then go. Wake up! Sitting and crying being emotional is not going to help. Wake up and see this is the world and the world has its own metrics. See how you can move forward. That is what I can say .. :)

Then you will say .. wow! Life is much more than I thought it was..

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Pain is never permanent .. !!

The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, in the middle of the simple beauty of nature.

Pain is never permanent ..

A wise man once sat in the audience & cracked a joke. All laughed like crazy.. After a moment he cracked the same joke again and a little less people laughed this time. He cracked the same joke again & again, when there was no laughter in the crowd, he smiled and said,

“When u can’t laugh on the same joke again & again, then why do u keep crying over the same thing over and over again…”

‘Lets move on’… :) :) .. Pain is never permanent .. You google yourself to find which makes you feel better.. which makes you more happier.. which makes you more stronger enough to overcome your pain.

I am in search of that and trying to find out some remedies to overcome the pain .. as such mine is physical.. so going out alone with out my loved ones.. Don’t know whether this will reduce my pain or will increase as being me far away from my loved ones.. Seems being far from the loved ones is more painful than the physical pain..

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Life is made of Sweet Lies !!

Life has never promised u anything...
Nor has god...
 

But people did... 
    Some said they wil never leave u...Lie..
    Some said they wil love u till death...Lie..
    Some said u are the most precious one...Lie..
 

Life is made of such sweet Lies...
All that matters is, how u faced the time when u finally realized those were just lies...
 

You may ask "wudn't life be much better without these lies?"
But the fact is , The times u lived on those big lies were the only times u truely lived... !!!


But that is not the life.. Life is something not about finding yourself in these lies..its all about creating yourself.. and Live for the moments which you can't put into words...

Sunday, October 30, 2011

My Pain.. My Suffering...

Every pain and suffering is not permanent.. Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever. 

I want to be alone.. Being alone can be depressing.. If you let it.. I keep my aches and pains to myself.. I just listen and pray alot to keep me away from these aches and pains.. so that I can spend my time with my loved ones.. I can regularize my activities..
I couldn't even imagine how my loved ones are suffering because of me.. I don't want to give them my pain and suffering.. Hopefully everything will settle down soon..

I have a strong feeling that pain of mind is worse than pain of body. Probably I may be in this stage now.. I have to overcome the pain of mind.

Everything is important, and everything is unimportant. When you realize this fact, you have no more choices to make. That is why all these pains and aches are.. It might be important to your life, probably to bend you into better shape.. :)

Friday, October 28, 2011

Dealing rude behavior

Life has taught me so many things within very short span.. Now I am relaxed.. and feel like I am the most happiest person in the world. We just have to accept the things which are coming to your way.. then.. you will find your happiness in the same path. Whatever is happening to you.. it is all your destiny. Just accept it.

In your life... What do you do when someone behaves very rudely to you? 

  • Get upset
  • React rudely back
  • Get frustrated
  • Run-away from and avoid the person or the situation
  • Blame the person
  • Preach to the person

I do get upset with the others rude behavior. None of these will in any way strengthened me. Then I searched for other options? Then I finally found some solutions to see rude behavior in the other way:

  • It indicates the intensity of their commitment
  • It indicates the amount of stress and insensitivity
  • It projects the up-bringing of the person
  • It indicates a behavioral pattern
  • It shows lack of knowledge
  • It shows lack of observation of one's own mind and its sensations
  • It shows you behavior to avoid
  • It is an opportunity for you to welcome and absorb the rudeness
  • It strengthens your mind
  • It unconditions the love that you are

The next time when someone is rude to you, make sure you don't get upset. Just give back a broad smile. If you can digest the rudeness, nothing whatsoever can shake you.  That is what I am following now.:)

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Afraid to lose You ... !

When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you..
When I first talked to you, I was afraid to like you..
When I first liked you, I was afraid to love you..
Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.. !

Friday, October 7, 2011

For you ... Dear

I feel like I have no one to hear me..  my feelings... So I finally found a place where no one knows me.. but are sharing my thoughts , my feelings.. my worries... Finally I found something to get relaxed.. but not with loved ones.. but found new ones.. who loves me.. cares me..

Trying to get out of all these worries.. I want you to be happy all the times.. but could not make you happy.. moreover I am bothering you much..but will try my best to get rid of these things.. and make you happy.

If you are happy..  I will be the ecstatic person in the world. If you are worried... I will be the most distressing person in the world. We are in such a condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to our own...

Life has taught me that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction... isn't it..!!

Which is more expensive - Your smile or your anger?

Do you get angry? If so, how often?
I can but it's very expensive....

Usually, we can give our anger freely and smile rarely as though a smile is costly.

In ignorance, anger is cheaper and a smile is costly.
In Knowledge, a smile is free like sun, air, and water and anger is extremely expensive like a diamond.

And in my view we have to make our Smile cheaper and anger expensive. And my Anger is too expensive..!!(I mean in other way .. :) ). But trying to reduce my anger and want to be free like wind. 

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Why Me.... Its a part of Life !! Accept it !!

Arthur Ashe, the legendary Wimbledon player was dying of AIDS which he got due to infected blood he received during a heart surgery in 1983..
 
From world over, he received letters from his fans, one of which conveyed: "Why does GOD have to select you for such a bad disease"?
 
To this Arthur Ashe replied:

"
The world over, 50 million  children start playing tennis, 5 million learn to play tennis, 500,000 learn professional tennis, 50,000 come to the circuit, 5000 reach the  grand slam, 50 reach Wimbledon, 4 to semi final, 2 to the finals, when I was holding a cup I never asked GOD 'Why me?'. And today in pain I should not be asking GOD 'Why me?' "

Monday, September 19, 2011

Without Him...

Without him my nights don't pass..
Without him there is no peace for a moment..
Without him how do I live..
 
Without him I appease him..
Without him I tried to please him..

Without him my heart cheats me..

W
ithout him, I reach him..
Without him, I hug him..
Without he being here, my heart is in him only..

The Most Beautiful Spot ....

There is a place you can come where everything is beautiful. Tourists go from place to place looking for beauty. They try to take beauty from that place. They only get tired and tanned. Yet the most beautiful spot anywhere is right here. When you come here, you find that wherever you are, everything is so beautiful. 

Where is this place? Don't look here and there. Where do you go? Its within you. 

When you come here, then any place is beautiful. Then wherever you go, you add beauty there. 
If you are unhappy, even the moon is irritating to you. Sweet things are nauseating, music is disturbing. 

When you are calm and centred inside, noise is musical, clouds are magical, rain is liquid sunshine. Book yourself on a trip to this most beautiful place in the universe. It goes on and on.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

You feel a lot of love for someone and they do not take it. What do you do?

1. Get frustrated 
2. Turn the love into hatred and wish for revenge 
3. Again and again remind them how much you love them and how little they love you 
4. Become fussy and cranky 
5. Throw tantrums 
6. Feel humiliated and try to protect your respect 
7. Resolve never to love again 
8. Feel hurt and mistreated 
9. Try to be aloof and indifferent ...

and you have seen that none of these work. They only make the situation worse. 

What is the way out of this? How do you maintain your lovingness? 

1. Have patience and change your expression of love. 
2. Be centered and limit your expression of love. Sometimes over-expression of love puts people off. 
3. Take it for granted that they love you too and accept their style of expression. For example, a mother with three kids. One child talks, one child does not talk, one child throws tantrums. Mother's love is the same irrespective of their behaviour. 
4. Genuinely acknowledge their love for you. This will turn your demand into gratefulness and the more you are grateful in life, the more love comes your way. 
5. Know that hurt is part of love and take responsibility for it. 
6.There may be circumstances that others love you back but are just not willing to commit... accept their reason.. it is a part of life

When you move away from your center, you will definitely get hurt and the nature of worldliness is misery.

Don't make a mistake by pointing out mistakes!

Do not tell a person a mistake he knows. What's the use of pointing out a mistake that he knows he has committed? By doing this, you will only make them feel more guilty, defensive or resentful and this will only create more distance. You should only point out the mistake of a person who does not know, but who wants to know. Do not point out the mistake of a person who knows but doesn't want you to know. Often people know the mistakes that they have committed, but they do not want you to tell them. Think of the usefulness of your comments.

Before pointing out the mistake of a person, see whether your comments in any way will help to improve the situation, foster love or bring harmony. A magnanimous person would not pick on the mistakes of others and make them feel guilty. However, they would correct them with compassion and care, not through words but through attitudes.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Authority and love

Mistakes keep happening all the time. Often you get irritated by them and want to correct them. How much can you correct? There are two situations when you correct others’ mistakes: 

1. You correct someone’s mistake because it bothers you. But even if you correct it, this does not work. 
2. You correct someone’s mistake, not because it bothers you, but for their sake so that they can grow. 

To correct mistakes you need authority and love. Authority and love seem to be contradictory, but in reality they are not. Authority without love is stifling and does not work. Love without authority is shallow. A friend needs to have both authority and love but they need to be in the right combination. This can happen if you are totally dispassionate and centred. When you allow room for mistakes, you can be both authoritative and sweet. That is how, the right balance of both. People, when they are in love, exercise authority with each other. Authority and love exist in all relationships. 

One guy says, "The husband just loves and the wife has authority." 
the other guy asks, "Is that a mistake?" 

But I said, "I don’t want to correct it!" 

With whom do you feel really comfortable and at ease?

If someone doubts your love and you constantly have to prove it, this becomes a heavy load on your head. When someone doubts your love, they start questioning you and demanding explanations for all your actions. To explain everything you do is a burden. But your nature is to shed the burden, and so you don't feel comfortable. When you question the reason behind an action, you are asking for justice for yourself. You are creating a distance when you ask for justice. Your whole intention is to come close, but you are creating a distance. You are a witness to all your actions. You are as much a stranger to your own actions as you are to someone else's. You are the Eternal Witness. When someone asks for an explanation, they are speaking from doership and imposing that doership on you. This brings discomfort. If somebody is just there with you, like a part of you, they don't question you. They are like your arm. There is thorough understanding and questions don't arise. Neither demand an explanation nor give an explanation.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Ego & Self

Ego is identification with a small role that you play, any limited identity. Ego is – ‘I am something, I am intelligent, I am stupid, I like this, I don’t like that, I am rich, I am poor, I am ugly or I am beautiful, I am teacher, I am doctor, I am something, I am, that is ego. The identity or label you put on yourself is ego.

When you understand all this then you feel, “Is this the thing?” Do I exist only in the limited boundaries of the roles that I play? No! After understanding ego also, there is something left, what is this? That is the self.

How to be happy always?

Forget about always, then you are happy. In wanting to be comfortable always, one becomes lazy. In wanting perfection always, one becomes angry. In wanting to be rich always, one becomes greedy When we do not realize that only life is for always, then fear comes. All ways do not lead you, only one way leads you. If you remove always from your dictionary then everything is alright Drop "always" and all will be right - that is intelligence.

Ego And Self From A Different Angle

Ego is that something, which has two aspects – the positive and the negative.

The creativity in you – are the results of ego. At the same time, when you break down communication, when you isolate yourself, when you’re in tears, when you’re stressed – that is also ego. We do not know about the ego, and so we don’t pay much attention to it. But just 2-3 facts, awareness of how ego works !

The self – the basis of life! You can call it the spirit, the soul, consciousness, the source of the mind – anything. It is that something, which doesn’t change in one’s whole life. After discovering about all these levels, what is left is the Self.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Worrying & Feelings

The head worries and the heart feels. They cannot function at the same time. When your feelings dominate, worry dissolves. If you worry a lot, your feelings are dead and you are stuck in the head. Worrying makes your mind and heart inert and dull. Worries are like a rock in the head. Worry entangles you. Worry puts you in a cage. When you feel, you do not worry. Feelings are like flowers, they come up, they blossom and they die. Feelings rise, they fall and then disappear. When feelings are expressed, you feel relieved. When you are angry, you express your anger and the next moment you are all right. Or you are upset, you cry and you get over it. Feelings last for some short time and then they drop, but worry eats you for a longer period of time, and eventually eats you up. Feelings make you spontaneous. Children feel, so they are spontaneous. Adults put brakes on their feelings and they start worrying. Worrying about anything obstructs action while feelings propel action. Worrying about negative feelings is a blessing because it puts the brakes on those feelings, preventing you from acting on them. Usually one never worries about positive feelings. Worries are uncertain. Worrying takes away your energy; you cannot think clearly when you worry. Offering your worries is prayer and prayer moves you in feelings.

Space

95 percent of all this is hollow and empty. 98 percent of our body is space. Scientists say our body can be compacted in a single match box. Each atom is all hollow and empty. What comprises of this empty space is consciousness. That is why Lord Buddha said, “I searched and searched and searched and found nothing”. Professor Durr said, “I studied matter for 35 years to find out it doesn’t exist”. "Atoms turn out to be 99.99999999% empty space".

Challenges

Challenges are there to make you see that you can overcome them, that you have the energy. Your spirit should be high at all times. It doesn’t matter, never mind, keep moving and keep your spirit high. That is the main lesson - that you are unaffected by the event. Lessons come out of challenges. These are momentary challenges; see them off with a smile.

Friday, July 15, 2011

You are a gift to the world!

Any celebration can be genuine only when there is dispassion in the heart. When the mind turns inwards and latches onto that which is not changing, that which is eternal. You know what, the moment you see that deep inside you are eternal, then what is death and what is birth? It’s like people saying the sun is rising and the sun is setting. Neither does the sun rise nor does the sun set, in the same way we are not born and we never die. We remain, we stay; that aspect of our consciousness is what we need to latch on to and that is the spiritual path; that’s it!

Generally you have all noticed that somewhere deep inside you there is this feeling that I am not changing, everything else is changing but I have not grown up. I also don’t feel that I am 50 plus at all and similarly every one of you feel that you haven’t grown up. There is something in you that says, 'I have not changed, I have not aged'. You really are ageless and still you do all these celebrations.

If celebration can bring more service activity then I would go for it every day! Why once a year?

I am so glad that hundreds and thousands of volunteers today around the world are engaged in some or the other service activities. There are so many blood donation camps and so many programs happening. As I am speaking there are so many satsangs that are happening right now and we are on the webcast and millions of people are watching and I am congratulating them all. You have done a lot of service activities today. Keep it up and take any excuse to do service activities.

For life to be blissful, two things are essential. One is dispassion. Latch on to that inner being that is non-changing. Just recollect and remember that you don’t change and nothing inside you changes, you are eternal. When you are anchored in that dispassion then life becomes a celebration, at the same time service activities happen through you spontaneously. So when we are doing service activity, we have to share. Whatever we have, we should share with everybody and when we go deep inside our Self, then dispassion arises. These two things, service and dispassion, can make life a celebration. So snatch any occasion to have these two values.

A celebration without dispassion is very flaky. It is superficial, and there is no depth to it. In the same way service without dispassion is also not the best quality service because it tires you down. We need to be more dispassionate and do service activity and then life becomes a celebration.

My being here is only to remind you that your being is eternal, we are all eternal and in life challenges come and problems come, some pleasant, some unpleasant. All these events come and situations come, but don’t worry. I am with you and together we will sail over all these rough waters and we will make life a celebration. We have already made life a celebration and we will continue to bring celebration to our life and continue to bring more celebration into the lives of the millions of people around us, yes!


Actually you should remember you are a gift to the world. You are not a burden to the planet but you are a gift and when you feel that self-worth coming up within, you will be able to do wonderful things for people around you. When you are satisfied, when you are fulfilled, you can only think of what you can do for everybody else and to realize that you must realize the fact that you are a gift to this world.

I was giving the analogy of a match stick; remember that you are a match stick. The purpose of a match stick is to light the lamps. You know, you strike the match stick and it burns and it lights several candles. Like that so many match sticks in a box can light so many lives. So think you are a super-sized match box. You are here to bring light, wisdom and happiness into the lives of people.

So don’t worry about anything, all your little needs and desires will be taken care of, it will all happen. You have to turn and see what you are doing for the world, how you are contributing to this world and how you are enhancing spirituality in the world. This is essential and is very much needed.

This is a new policy; don’t try to make anybody happy, you can’t

I have seen that swamis, sadhus and people in ancient times would not like to listen to any conflict anywhere. If someone came and complained to them they would just plug their ears and say, “You deal with it.”

See, if you are part of the solution, your energy is high. But if you are talking about problems and problems, your energy comes down.

In the world there is always a play of positive and negative; some problems come, some challenges come and solutions also come behind it. The ancient people would simply focus on keeping their energy high. If your energy is high then when people come to you their problems will get solved.

Usually what happens when you talk to people? You get stooped into their level of problems. They talk to you about their problems and what happens? You get carried away into the problems. So just try this: one day let everybody come and complain 100 things to you, you simply keep your energy high, your sight inward, your mind inward as though nothing has happened. You will suddenly feel there is a freedom within you.
You try this: at home your mother-in-law will complain, your husband will complain, anybody can complain about anything, let the world go topsy-turvy, but hold onto the idea - I am going to keep my energy high. You just take one such step and see, because problems and challenges come so that you can turn your mind inward.
Instead of turning our minds inward when problems come, what do we do? We chase the problem and when we chase the problem we get totally drawn in that direction, dragged in that direction and then our energy goes down and we collapse. Isn’t this what happens?

Many times, in the name of compassion and sympathy you get drowned. Your compassion does not really help at all in solving the problem. It may be very shocking because in compassion the problem multiplies, and it doesn’t get solved.

Any problem comes so that a person can turn inward and look inside, get into a state of dispassion and calmness. Instead you give reasons and try to pacify the person. Pacifying a person in a problem is the worst thing. You should not pacify them. Let everybody bear their own cross. Bear your karma. If you are miserable it is your karma, if you are happy it is your karma. So you change your karma. This attitude makes a person more independent.

You show compassion and then they want more attention. You feel more compassion and give more attention and then neither compassion is there nor can you give any more attention. Only tension remains. It breeds tension in you, ‘That poor person is so upset and I have to make them happy’. Making someone happy is a big burden. Don’t try to do that at all. This is a new policy; don’t try to make anybody happy, you can’t.

There is a Sanskrit proverb that says ‘Kashtasya sukasya nakopi data’. Nobody gives happiness or misery. It is created by one’s own self, one’s own mind. When someone says ‘problem’, just turn and run in the other direction. Say deal with it, you deal with your own problem. Then you see independence comes, interdependence comes in people and that is how you make yourself self- sufficient.
I am talking about this to sadhaks, to all of you who are already on the path. But don’t use this when someone in the street is crying and they want a lift and you say, ‘Guruji said let them deal with it, I am out.’ If you have space in your car you should go attend to them. That compassion is needed there, but not in relationships. When you are relating with people, random acts of compassion are essential. To someone whom you do not know, be compassionate.
Be passionate about dispassion.

Just see your own mind keeps getting bogged down by that person’s feeling, that person’s tension and this lady’s misery and this person’s unhappiness - what can you do and where have you gone? What has happened to you? You are completely shattered. That is why they say cut all these cobwebs around you, all these strings around you, only one string to the Divine, only one string.

Even there, don’t say, ‘Guruji didn’t look at me, maybe God is angry with me’, this and that, no! Everything is prasad, if I am kicked out, it is a Prasad. If I am scolded, it is Prasad. Everything is prasad, This attitude is the best attitude. So: no attention, no tension. Good!

Monday, May 16, 2011

This I have seen in life—those who are overcautious about themselves fall into dangers at every step; those who are afraid of losing honor and respect, get only disgrace; and those who are always afraid of loss, always lose.

My Dream

I've always said that one night, I'm going to find myself in some field somewhere, I'm standing on grass, and it's raining, and I'm with the person I love, and I know I'm at the very point I've been dreaming of getting to.
The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt.
Suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but - I hope - into a better shape.

Tender Heart

Every night and every day my heart feels the pain
I wake up to the thought of you and I call your name
No one ever made me feel the way you do
Nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you
But now I've got to let go

We don't stand a chance
In this wild romance, my tender heart
Maybe it's wiser to walk away and love again
With my tender heart.
We don't stand a chance
In this wild romance, oh it hurts so bad
Knowing that I'm not the one you want
I can't hold on to my tender heart

I never thought I'd be the one who would play the fool
But I know love can feel so good and can be so cruel
It's clear to me the writing is on the wall
It's clear to me that you don't really love me at all
And I can't go on this way

We don't stand a chance
In this wild romance, my tender heart
Maybe it's wiser to walk away and love again
With my tender heart.
We don't stand a chance
In this wild romance, oh it hurts so bad
Knowing that I'm not the one you want
I can't hold on to my tender heart

I'm standing at the door
Don't need this hurt no more
I'm crying out in vain
Cause you don't feel my pain.

Maybe it was always going to be this way
Maybe I'll look back and understand some day
But now I've got to say
We don't stand a chance
In this wild romance, my tender heart
Maybe it's wiser to walk away and love again
With my tender heart.
We don't stand a chance
In this wild romance, oh it hurts so bad
Knowing that I'm not the one you want
I can't hold on to my tender heart
My tender heart
I'm the one that has to die when it's time for me to die. So let me live my life, the way I want to.

About me

I like to be a free spirit. Some don't like that, but that's the way I am:)