There are no moments in my life that make me and set the course of who I'm going to be.

Sometimes there are little, subtle moments. Sometimes there're big moments I never saw coming.

No one asks for my life to change, but it does. That's what I do afterwards I counts.

That's when I find out who I am.

I have been trying to find what is meant by a secret. I feel they are like a cancer in the soul. They eat away what is good and leave only destruction behind. Man is not what he thinks he is, he is what he hides. Its like trying to protect a secret causes anxiety and discomfort. 

I doesn't  want to hear any secrets.. We doesn't even  know until we hear it !! But now I keep me away from social gatherings, family members and sitting lonely.. making myself alone. I am myself alone..always lonely..  I never lie," I said offhand. "At least not to those I don't love". Don't know...

I was thinking about my past.. I got back my memory. Now I have realized and write how it was...

I learned so many lessons from my past. I got to know the impermanent nature of the world and events, and also knows the non-existence of past events right now and accept them. It is all a matter of where you are, of what you are. I never stuck with events in my time and space. My Nature was cool.. don't ask now why i wrote my nature was cool.. Now I have ups and downs in my life. But when I think of my past, It was cool and I was so energetic..so simple.. so lovely.

Memory is a blessing and your best friend when it comes to you. Memory is a hindrance when it does not let you be free of events, pleasant or unpleasant. Memory of past events constricts the vastness of the self.

When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say, 'I used everything you gave me and the person whom you gave for me for my life is the best person in the world forever. The love for him is eternal'.

I found some thing Rapid fire questions which I could not stop sharing with you..


- Politics?
Inevitable.

- Religion?
Lifeline or could be death-line.

- Anger?
Avoidable.

- Fear?
Love upside down.

- Joy?
Your nature.

- Knowledge?
That brings happiness.

- Alcohol?
That brings misery.

- Myself?
The lucky one.

- Chaos?
Mother of bliss.

- Your smile?
Unforgettable.

- Prayer?
Works.

- Relationship?
Work's all the time. But some says Doesn't work all the time.

- Youth?
Responsibility. Anyone who takes responsibility is a youth.

- Intelligent?
One who performs the responsibility.

- World?
A gift to humanity.

- Technology?
Meant to bring comfort.

- Future?
That which you can make bright.

- God?
Love.

- Life?
The same. Ditto.. ! :)

Its a boring day today... though I spent my time with my family...I tired alot.. need to have long weekend..there and where I could spend my time with myself..by taking rest and rest and rest.. Need rest very badly.. :)